As I sit here today on a new medication feeling like crud, I wonder if I will ever get a break from medical issues. I have just been diagnosed with Hypothriodism. That is where my thyroid is not producing the thyroid hormoe like it should so there for I have to take hormone therapy for the rest of my life. My thyroid is 3X bigger than normal and since the likely hood of it shrinking to normal size is not very good we need to remove my thyroid. I am totally torn on how to feel. I keep saying to myself people have it worst. Like Baby Matthew is fighting for his life, and Karen has to deal with cancer every day. Is it fair for me to complain about another medical procedure when my friends are dealing with them every single day and have no clue what is going to happen next. My heart says Desi be happy you are with your family and have a good life, a procedure here or there is not a big deal, but my brain said THIS SUCKS!!!!! I have had 8 surgeries in 7 years. I am so sick of being sick or in pain or taking medication that i have side effects too. This new challenage in my life is most likley a genetic problem. I love who I am and who I have become thanks to my folks, but I HATE GENES!!!! I want to not be ill, not have surgerys, not sit waiting anxetially for the most recent test results and not waiting to see what will happen next. I can not figure out how to feel, when i go on rants about what is going on. In my head i feel horrible for my friends and should not coplain but then think that i just want a break. 1 year with no pain, no tests, no illness, just live, laugh and love.
Such is life and this is just the next page in my huge book of life lessons.
